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2008 – A Look Back

What a year. Those three words include so much. There is so much that the year 2008 has involved. So many bad and hurtful circumstances. Arguments and yelling, discord between fellow believers, physical and mental anguish, and all things in-between. Many people that have either been close to me or people I know have passed away, more than I’ve ever experienced. I’ve gotten the suit coat and nice pants out of the closet enough times for another decade. This film is going to hit home when its watched by people locally for more than one reason. There being so much death to deal with before and during the shooting of this film only showed us even more that God wanted us to make a movie about death. Hard times on-set of the movie, and stupid piddley things that mean nothing but at that time seemed to mean everything. Yet, through all of it, so much good has come. So many Blessings, so much to be thankful for, and so much happiness and memories, none of which will leave me anytime soon.

There is so much to this past year besides the film, but the film seemed to overtake the rest. The last 6 months especially, mid-summer being the worst of it all. So many things gone wrong, lots of different jobs to do, uncertainty of success and everyone around me asking “what’s next,” when at times I honestly didn’t know. All I had was a story idea, a good idea of what needed to be done to make that idea a reality, and my Lord. The last of those three being the key element and the one that made everything else work.

Why am I writing this anyways? I found myself sitting here at my computer late at night, thinking over this past year and all the things that have happened. I began to cry, sob being the better term. I mean how could you not? I wasn’t crying because of all the bad that had happened or how hard the year was. I was crying because in spite of all of it, here I was, with a film in Post-Production and all sorts of Blessing surrounding it, with a family and a home, a job and a paycheck, and friends and people that care for me. I deserve nothing, I am complete and utter garbage when measured up to the one who deserves it all. I have salvation through Jesus but honestly I never deserved that even, it was free. So on top of something like that I get all this? Good is a sick understatement to the God we serve. Here are all these things I shouldn’t have, and it made me weep. How GOOD is our Lord? How WORTHY is He? How MERCIFUL and FAITHFUL! I feel like all I did was put my seatbelt on and Jesus hit the gas pedal.

What an amazing feeling. That’s just the film, I’m not even talking about the personal things he has done. I’ve learned many things this year. No matter how bad things get, He’s right here where He’s always been…waiting for His children to come to Him so He can give them comfort. How can that not move you to tears? When you really get it, you really understand how much you DON’T DESERVE what you have, and the eternal damnation that SHOULD await you, and yet that’s the very thing that DOESN’T when your God’s child…phew. That motivates me to give God all I have and leave the results in His hands.

Do I know what will happen with this film? Nope. Do I know God does? Yep. His hand has been faithfully pushing my often lazy, unfaithful, wretched excuse for a life down the track, herding me towards the finish line. That sounds harsh but I really hope I never loose sight of what I am now and what I would probably be without Jesus. I need to constantly remind myself what I am in His sight without His Sons forgiveness. I hope regardless of whatever the film does for all of you out there who watch it (assuming God finds us distribution, and if not I’ll Praise Him anyways), that the story behind the making of this film would motivate and move you to do whatever God has called you to do. I don’t care what it is, find out and run with it. God has a purpose for each and every one of you. Find it, and go.

I hope this has message has been a Blessing to you all, and that it gives you a new perspective for 2009.

Ephesians 3:20-2: “Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us, Unto him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus throughout all ages, world without end. Amen.”

God Bless & Happy New Year to all of you,
Kyle Prohaska

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13 Responses to “2008 – A Look Back”

  1. Melody Olson Says:

    Hey Ky…

    Powerful: That is what this blog post is. Thank you for sharing your heart and soul with such brutal honestly, wow. I wept as I read it – feeling your emotions tugging at my own losses this year. Bless you brother, keep the faith, walk the walk and Be Blessed~!

    Mel

  2. Ryan Says:

    Kyle,

    That’s some awesome stuff man. When you look back at the year, a lot of us tend to introspect ourselves. The Lord has great plans for you and for all of us. The key of course is to having faith and trust in Him. I’m sure this film and other projects praising the Lord and stuff will be blessed, for we need to get as many people as we can to know the loving power of Jesus.

    Ryan

  3. JOANNE FISHER Says:

    I am really excited to see the way God is working in and through this endeavor. I have faith that 2009 will bring even greater things for His glory.

  4. Paul Munger Says:

    Really enjoyed reading that. Thanks for sharing your heart. It’s awesome to see how the Lord provided for you every step of the way and brought you through tough times to a near-finished product. God is good all the time! May the film impact many for righteousness’ sake.

    In Christ,
    Paul

  5. Candy Brown Says:

    Thank you so much for sharing this with us! If we all would only put our faith in Jesus and let Him lead the way, we would all be so much better off. May God bless you in the rest of what has to be done with your film and all that you do; and may we all remember to give God all the glory in every aspect of our lives!!!

  6. Brit Says:

    Kyle,

    I am blessed to read your words about the past year, knowing that God is at work and absolutely does have things in store beyond what we can ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us.

    Thank you for investing in our forums and our growing community. You have been a huge encouragement to us and a God-send for sure, even in the midst of your whirlwind life.

    God bless you,
    Brittany Hardy

  7. Rick Prohaska Says:

    What a year for us all. I pray that God continue’s to bless you and everyone involved with the post production activities. I know God will always continue to bless those who seek him for guidance and strength. Keep your focus on him and watch as things fall into place in 2009.

    Love you,

    Dad

  8. Mark Milleville Says:

    Kyle,
    You have been truly touched by God and it is to his glory that he is able to do much with seemingly so little. You are the loaves and fish that to an outside person may not seem to be enough to fulfill the needs, yet God has multiplied you and led you in a way that no one could have imagined just a few short years ago. Aren’t you excited to see what HE will do through you next year?!

    God bless,

    Mark

  9. JOSIE HOPKINS Says:

    kyle
    ill be glad to see what god has alowed working thew you and all.
    GOD BLESS JOSIE

  10. Eric Highland Says:

    Kyle,

    Your journey as summarized here has blessed me. Thank you so very much for blessing us with your personal thoughts. God has done a mighty work in you and provided you stay surrendered to Him, will continue to do so.

    You have blessed us at Christian-movie.com and I too am thankful for your willingness and eagerness to be involved. You have truly been used of God in this regard.

    I look forward to our continued relationship and feel free to message me anytime. I enjoyed our conversation last night.

    In His Majesty’s service
    Eric

  11. Kathy Cieslak Says:

    Kyle,
    I am sitting here with a cup of coffee and a couple of the cookies Matt offered you and you turned down (thank’s!) I am completey encouaged and blessed by both the trailer you shared and now reading your blog! It has been a privilage to hear such an honest testimony of our Loving Lord’s faithfulness in the life of one of His children. Continue to stand firm in your endeavor to bring a deserving God the glory He is so richly deserving of. WHAT AN AWESOME GOD WE SERVE!

    Resting in His Presence,
    Kathy Cieslak

  12. Caleb Naylor Says:

    Hey Kyle! Thanks for sharing this! It has been an amazing year for me too.

    I sincerely hope and pray that God will continue to bless you and this project as you work for Him…wow He is sooo amazing!

    I can’t wait to see the finished deal! :D:D

    In Christ!

    Caleb

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